life is cheap like that.
all it seems to take is
a slight rumble of the earth,
a gust of strong wind,
a shift of the sea bed,
a micro-organism up to no good...
it is not a fair exchange
how much we put in and
the lengths we go to
sustain it, love it,
better it to create
some false but comforting
sense of control over it,
and ultimately have so
little say in how or when it finally ceases.
the recent Sichuan Quake and
Myanmar Cyclone just provide a
magnified view of the true tragedy of what
our world seems to be.
even without catastrophes of these scale,
so many sad stories are played out everyday,
though in the comparative less sensational
fashion, be it man-made or natural.
it's really nothing new,
humanity has had a history of
screwing up.
during our Cambodia trip,
we visited the torture camps and
killing fields operated during the
Khmer Rouge rule in the 70s,
and we witnessed for ourselves
how lives are so absurdly
devalued.
it is frustrating.
there is really no ownership over
the world i live in
because i have only this much
to give.
and what more
everything that i am and
i feel just seems so
superficial, so temporary,
the sympathy, the powerlessness:
they are genuine but they are
unable to go anywhere beyond
myself.
thing is,
tomorrow my life will not change
and i will not be a different person.
this is the world that we live in
but how much command do we have?
suddenly, life is
just a number that adds to the death toll.
but the world really won't stop
any longer than just a lil while.
sometimes it is all so laughable
the things that bother us
because when it comes to the end,
all we're hanging on to
is something so basic as
hope.
make yourself feel better.
put your dollars to better use
than the great singapore sale:
http://www.redcross.org.sg/chinaearthquake_src_donate.htm
8:16 PM